Apprehensive

I've just been googling Ipoh. Until yesterday, I thought I was moving to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. Sure, it's in another country, but at least it's big,cosmopolitan, and has major air routes. I was getting more comfortable with the idea of living in KL, but that's not where we're headed after all. Apparenly, Ipoh is "close" to KL, so I spent a few hours finding out about it. It's 2 hours, 200km from KL according to Google Earth. Neither Malaysia Airlines or Air Asia fly there (I looked). In fact, I haven't yet found an airline that flies to KL from there, only Singapore. The tables have shifted slightly.

It doesn't change much. We're still planning to go- it's our opportunity to at last unleash the frustrated inventor trapped in my husand. It's been waiting for nearly 50 years, so leave we must. We will return victorious or defeated. We return wealthy or broken, heroic or unnoticed. But we'll give it our best- for the inventor, for me, for our finaciers, for humankind, for the Earth.

Today I'm just a bit more apprehensive than I was yesterday. My friends keep asking if I'm excited about the move. Yes, I'm excited, but at the moment, the terror outweighs the excitement, so what do I answer? By all rights, I should be excited- we are on the cusp of something big, really big, and have the money behind us to get it rolling. But I'm a realist, I've had enough knocks in my time, and I know that success at this venture won't come without cost.

We'll be leaving behind many dear friends. Our young adult son and daughter will be a long way away, back in Australia.I'll be leaving my two jobs, one which provides financial security, the other a sense of purpose and fulfilment. We'll have to settle into a new place, and find our niche. For every success, I know there'll be twice as many disappointments and setbacks, stress and problems. Apprehensive is my word for today.